Some of it's just my schedule. I have a lot going on.
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Some of it's my horse. He's . . . well, opinionated.
So many opinions
And some of it's my environment. My barn is far from a competitive hot bed. I am the only dressage focused rider. I am the only one with a focus on sanctioned competition in any discipline. I am the only adult competitor. The list goes on. I am, hands down, the most advanced rider in the barn aside from my trainer. This means that if I share a lesson, my lesson is going to need to be down shifted.
It's starting to become a problem.
My Wednesday night ladies lesson has been rescheduled about six weeks in a row, usually to the weekend. I think I'm just going to drop that lesson. Yes, I enjoy the pony parade, but I find myself just flopping along. It's more expensive than going to a bar to just hang out.
My Friday morning lessons are either privates and therefore more intense and focused or they're shared with whatever random adult beginner that needs a lesson at that time. My last lesson, we cantered for about two minutes on our own. The rest of the lesson we practiced straightness, which is important, at the walk and trot straight down quarter line. No shoulder in, no haunches in, nothing because the other rider wouldn't even know what those things are much less how to do them. I really, really need to work on my simple changes but if anyone is in my lesson, that's off the table.
I'm too focused and competitive to handle this well. And then my training ride got rescheduled and camp is going on so it's rather chaotic at the barn and Theo's shed STILL needs to be repaired . . .
I sent out an email to set up a trailer in lesson with Mary Howard. Surprise, surprise, she emailed me back right away and I have a lesson with her on Friday the 21st. She's a Grand Prix rider that won the Pan Am games in 1985. She's got a bunch of students on the same circuit as me, including a couple of adult ammies debuting at Second level this year. I told her I was a First level rider with a draft cross and she still set me up with a lesson. AHHHHH.
This may be the kick in the pants I need. She's helped train up dozens of horses to FEI, I'm sure she can help me and my ploppy pony get to Second. And if we click (meaning her and Theo, mostly), she's only 45 minutes away and I can zip out to see her for more lessons. I guess I'm really going to have to get the lead out and buy myself a trailer of some sort. I think I've hit the point where I really, really need to be able to go out on my own and get the experiences I need.
I guess I'm tired of trying to fit into a 'program' where I'm a completely and utterly different type of a rider. I certainly can't move Theo to a fancy dancy dressage barn (broke and over an hour from my house), but we can go visit. Maybe a bit of the grandeur will rub off on him.
I can hope.